Saturday, June 30, 2007
i drank and work hard ytd
tried to forget everything
yea i did a little
but just now when i woke up
oh
tt fuck up contradicting feeling came back
tried to forget everything
yea i did a little
but just now when i woke up
oh
tt fuck up contradicting feeling came back
friendsforever;
3:53 PM
3:53 PM
Friday, June 29, 2007
3:10pm in lab
20-1-44
life's boring
to me it only seems that cocoon is where my true self is
no more polo
no more bb
the past i used to be so busy
now
it's seems lonely
it seems boring
with no purpose
the once sportsman
is now a slacker
the end with mind
to be fitter
stronger
better
faster
to carve my name out in sports
it only seems when flaring with music
all problems seems to fade
even now.. my hearts keeps on ponder
my mind keeps on wandering
i wanna have a holidae
out of sg
to a much more slow moving pace
enjoyable
relaxing
bla bla bla
the once busy me
with polo
bball
bartending
and school
2 quarters of my life have been taken away
i guess i carn wait for treatment anymore
i rather start pushing all over again
but something i must cut down
SMOKING
sometimes smoking do help even though it's just an addiction
smoking is bad for health but it seems as your bestest partner
seems contradicting huh
yea i agree too
tonite i'm working again
tired but at least i feel good
looked at shah's flare
after that ming kiat
nasir
fauzy
they are improving too fast that i couldn't keep up with them
damn....
went to arena last nite with nestor nasir his gf, fish
came shah, benny and fauzy
had a nice party
drank kinda lot... first time i puke after drinking
guess i drank too much
i felt so high, so high that all troubles seems to have gone
i love it so much
starting work at 7...
gonna get drunk again tonite
yea man...
drink and flare
new slogan!
i wonder who's reading my blog
dun think so...
if only.. ... ... ... ...
i could have someone to tok to... really..
i miss my 149 brothers
forbidden tenders
her
dad
daniel
diane
and
MUM =(
MUM i seriously miss ya... can u come back to life and
i can spend all the times i din with u again ??
mum all of a sudden came back into my mind because lately everything i see or hear it's all abt family
mothers love
cancer and fuck! enough
20-1-44
life's boring
to me it only seems that cocoon is where my true self is
no more polo
no more bb
the past i used to be so busy
now
it's seems lonely
it seems boring
with no purpose
the once sportsman
is now a slacker
the end with mind
to be fitter
stronger
better
faster
to carve my name out in sports
it only seems when flaring with music
all problems seems to fade
even now.. my hearts keeps on ponder
my mind keeps on wandering
i wanna have a holidae
out of sg
to a much more slow moving pace
enjoyable
relaxing
bla bla bla
the once busy me
with polo
bball
bartending
and school
2 quarters of my life have been taken away
i guess i carn wait for treatment anymore
i rather start pushing all over again
but something i must cut down
SMOKING
sometimes smoking do help even though it's just an addiction
smoking is bad for health but it seems as your bestest partner
seems contradicting huh
yea i agree too
tonite i'm working again
tired but at least i feel good
looked at shah's flare
after that ming kiat
nasir
fauzy
they are improving too fast that i couldn't keep up with them
damn....
went to arena last nite with nestor nasir his gf, fish
came shah, benny and fauzy
had a nice party
drank kinda lot... first time i puke after drinking
guess i drank too much
i felt so high, so high that all troubles seems to have gone
i love it so much
starting work at 7...
gonna get drunk again tonite
yea man...
drink and flare
new slogan!
i wonder who's reading my blog
dun think so...
if only.. ... ... ... ...
i could have someone to tok to... really..
i miss my 149 brothers
forbidden tenders
her
dad
daniel
diane
and
MUM =(
MUM i seriously miss ya... can u come back to life and
i can spend all the times i din with u again ??
mum all of a sudden came back into my mind because lately everything i see or hear it's all abt family
mothers love
cancer and fuck! enough
friendsforever;
3:12 PM
3:12 PM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
it's kinda hard now ...
yawnz....
besides that i'm tired
we went for a drive with issac daniel plus 2 other guys which i couldn't catch their names
i hope to be accepted
yawnz....
besides that i'm tired
we went for a drive with issac daniel plus 2 other guys which i couldn't catch their names
i hope to be accepted
friendsforever;
7:47 AM
7:47 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
looks like this time round
the decision is firm
there's nothin i can do anymore
i just screwed things up
i'm screwed
i'm so.........................................
the headache's... this time it hurting very much
the back's the same
gtg
the decision is firm
there's nothin i can do anymore
i just screwed things up
i'm screwed
i'm so.........................................
the headache's... this time it hurting very much
the back's the same
gtg
friendsforever;
10:24 AM
10:24 AM
Monday, June 18, 2007
cough till woke up
oh it simply suck
migrain's still there
wad nice feeling early in the morning -.-
did a few sit ups and push up...
damn my back
it seriously hurts
off to sch!
oh it simply suck
migrain's still there
wad nice feeling early in the morning -.-
did a few sit ups and push up...
damn my back
it seriously hurts
off to sch!
friendsforever;
7:58 AM
7:58 AM
having a very bad headache guess it's migrain again
just gave attitude towards some1
and guess tt some1's isn't happy
i was jealous
my heart sank
when it was mentioned tt things wouldn't work out
just gave attitude towards some1
and guess tt some1's isn't happy
i was jealous
my heart sank
when it was mentioned tt things wouldn't work out
friendsforever;
3:15 AM
3:15 AM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
entire day wasn't good for me
first it sux
next sickness makes things worst
and was wronged
i'm not a fkinh flirt cos i'm not
my conscience is clear
was called a liar
and i had abig present
the finger pointedto me
argh!
suck... simply having this fuk up feeling
i can't slp!
first it sux
next sickness makes things worst
and was wronged
i'm not a fkinh flirt cos i'm not
my conscience is clear
was called a liar
and i had abig present
the finger pointedto me
argh!
suck... simply having this fuk up feeling
i can't slp!
friendsforever;
6:36 AM
6:36 AM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
SUDDENLY i thot of u
went to your profile had a quick look
told myself u're fine and good
and went off
i realised it was so hard , it is
so hard to forget or stop thinking abt u
it just simply tear mi apart
life's so empty with out u
i love u so
still sick, same old shit
went to your profile had a quick look
told myself u're fine and good
and went off
i realised it was so hard , it is
so hard to forget or stop thinking abt u
it just simply tear mi apart
life's so empty with out u
i love u so
still sick, same old shit
friendsforever;
2:51 AM
2:51 AM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
TO RANDOM THOTS
whether A accepts B anot is depending on A if she is willing to accept B and try things out
let's say B have like A 1 yr ago tried courting but they quarrelled and never contacted again
and after 1 yr B starts courting A again, and treats A exactly the same 1 yr ago with unconditional care and concern...
whether A accepts anot it doesn't reflect anyting... B is just doing he/her best
let's say if A accepted B, but in the end A wants a break up. Do u think B is so childish to be going ard to list out all the bad points on A? if B really does, do u think B would have came back to court A the 2nd time ???
and if A consider B, means A is slowly accepting B good and bad points . so if that's the case and B is nice to A, i dun think A will brk up with B
If there's effort for love care and concern for a relationship
i'm in for it
damn la fcking sick!
whether A accepts B anot is depending on A if she is willing to accept B and try things out
let's say B have like A 1 yr ago tried courting but they quarrelled and never contacted again
and after 1 yr B starts courting A again, and treats A exactly the same 1 yr ago with unconditional care and concern...
whether A accepts anot it doesn't reflect anyting... B is just doing he/her best
let's say if A accepted B, but in the end A wants a break up. Do u think B is so childish to be going ard to list out all the bad points on A? if B really does, do u think B would have came back to court A the 2nd time ???
and if A consider B, means A is slowly accepting B good and bad points . so if that's the case and B is nice to A, i dun think A will brk up with B
If there's effort for love care and concern for a relationship
i'm in for it
damn la fcking sick!
friendsforever;
1:46 PM
1:46 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
BAD BAD DAY for dEs.mAtT
things just doesn't seems rite for me at all
it just sux the feeling sux
come to think of it, it's been months since i last attended mass 7 months...i guess
how i hope now GOD would come to me and massage me
massage my back to ease the pain from slip disc
massage my head to ease me from migrain
massage my knees to ease the pain of friction
massage my nose to ease the running nose
massage my throat to ease of constant cough and pain
massage my chest to ease from pain
and massage my heart to ease the unbearable ache
too much things going on...
on top of the few thingsi had in the morning
now i'm having flu cough and fever
wadz wrong?
thanks for the little care and concern it made mi felt better
i wouldn't wanna u to pioritise your life
neither do i want relationships to be 101
i wanna be lovers with u
i wanna have the relationship that doesn't have any ranking... but just apart of your life
yup someday we maybe together i hope...
ben told me to forget and move on.. but i carn maybe for now ? later ? tt i wouldn't noe but all i know is that i'm waiting endlessly
oh man i wonder if i could wake up
i'm waiting
things just doesn't seems rite for me at all
it just sux the feeling sux
come to think of it, it's been months since i last attended mass 7 months...i guess
how i hope now GOD would come to me and massage me
massage my back to ease the pain from slip disc
massage my head to ease me from migrain
massage my knees to ease the pain of friction
massage my nose to ease the running nose
massage my throat to ease of constant cough and pain
massage my chest to ease from pain
and massage my heart to ease the unbearable ache
too much things going on...
on top of the few thingsi had in the morning
now i'm having flu cough and fever
wadz wrong?
thanks for the little care and concern it made mi felt better
i wouldn't wanna u to pioritise your life
neither do i want relationships to be 101
i wanna be lovers with u
i wanna have the relationship that doesn't have any ranking... but just apart of your life
yup someday we maybe together i hope...
ben told me to forget and move on.. but i carn maybe for now ? later ? tt i wouldn't noe but all i know is that i'm waiting endlessly
oh man i wonder if i could wake up
i'm waiting
friendsforever;
4:29 AM
4:29 AM
Monday, June 11, 2007
10:25 am feel like dying
heart pain , throat infection, back hurts, migrain
so nice wad a fcking nice combo for me
just took 4 painkillers, feeling a little better. but still i feel like ... words carn describe wad i'm going thru
couldn't slp last nite yet again
had a chat of fish, we r on the same boat just that he is worst
we seriously dunno wad to do
y must al this happen to us when we are really planning to get serious in life
well life just never seems right for me never.
anyway just an update, even though no one's reading but its ok
went to CGH sports clinic seen Dr. Ben tan...
after checking me, he said that i have an early stage of slip disc just that it's not so serious yet, my knee cap's joint is out of place...
he insist tt i under go pyshiotherapy for 6 weeks for my knee and back
before i go for x ray
den most likely, prob op er ation...
got that ??? no more sports no more dreams everything's dashed
anyone's happi ???
anyway i doubt anyone's reading this....
bolly woods pic uploaded into friendster
dEs.mAtT
heart pain , throat infection, back hurts, migrain
so nice wad a fcking nice combo for me
just took 4 painkillers, feeling a little better. but still i feel like ... words carn describe wad i'm going thru
couldn't slp last nite yet again
had a chat of fish, we r on the same boat just that he is worst
we seriously dunno wad to do
y must al this happen to us when we are really planning to get serious in life
well life just never seems right for me never.
anyway just an update, even though no one's reading but its ok
went to CGH sports clinic seen Dr. Ben tan...
after checking me, he said that i have an early stage of slip disc just that it's not so serious yet, my knee cap's joint is out of place...
he insist tt i under go pyshiotherapy for 6 weeks for my knee and back
before i go for x ray
den most likely, prob op er ation...
got that ??? no more sports no more dreams everything's dashed
anyone's happi ???
anyway i doubt anyone's reading this....
bolly woods pic uploaded into friendster
dEs.mAtT
friendsforever;
10:28 AM
10:28 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
work was fine ytd... so was on fri
met up with am khai hanis shah and fauzy thurs 3 am after work...
before that met up with nest and fish for double o
and even before that met her and sent her home, she was tipsy
max showed me some routine and told me to use it alrite n i have integrated into my routine... end up still have one routine.
bartender of the yr ? yes no ?? i dunno......
she still needs time i guess.. nothin much...
quarrelled with her again ??? nothin seems right ytd
shaker kept slipping from my hand esp when the drinks are done...
next thing i noe, it slipped and boom, all gone
took tiger from fridge bar light dropped
flare and btl drop
and bar trick of the yr!
to get the f u c king spd pourer out of the btl without brking it..
enough of work
just woke up... first thing i checked... did she tried contacting mi? ans's no!
looks like things will never work out btw us
she's not trying to make the effort btw us
or maybe she just wouldn't wan to....
i'm so tired
sick of eveerythinnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
damn
des.mattt
met up with am khai hanis shah and fauzy thurs 3 am after work...
before that met up with nest and fish for double o
and even before that met her and sent her home, she was tipsy
max showed me some routine and told me to use it alrite n i have integrated into my routine... end up still have one routine.
bartender of the yr ? yes no ?? i dunno......
she still needs time i guess.. nothin much...
quarrelled with her again ??? nothin seems right ytd
shaker kept slipping from my hand esp when the drinks are done...
next thing i noe, it slipped and boom, all gone
took tiger from fridge bar light dropped
flare and btl drop
and bar trick of the yr!
to get the f u c king spd pourer out of the btl without brking it..
enough of work
just woke up... first thing i checked... did she tried contacting mi? ans's no!
looks like things will never work out btw us
she's not trying to make the effort btw us
or maybe she just wouldn't wan to....
i'm so tired
sick of eveerythinnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
damn
des.mattt
friendsforever;
7:44 PM
7:44 PM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
now's 11 am fucking hell so late already just now after work went to rave with nest, fish, nasir and ain... drank a little too much now i'm at nest hse .. carn imagine how do i look like when i'm drunk lol it's so hard to look after ppl esp when there's 2 of them haha
was supposed to rave with jane but den they took a little too long was late by 10 mins..
it was fun but it would had been better with jane ard man i miss her lol
i wonder if i got the chance ??
i wonder if she's thinking wad i'm thinking
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder
i really like her i really do... but i dunno how's she' feeling
i dun wanna push her too hard
nor do i wanna force her
and i do not wanna lose her
someone!!! tell me how... damn my head hurts gotta rest for 2 hrs den off to work
chaoz
dEs.mAtT
was supposed to rave with jane but den they took a little too long was late by 10 mins..
it was fun but it would had been better with jane ard man i miss her lol
i wonder if i got the chance ??
i wonder if she's thinking wad i'm thinking
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder
i really like her i really do... but i dunno how's she' feeling
i dun wanna push her too hard
nor do i wanna force her
and i do not wanna lose her
someone!!! tell me how... damn my head hurts gotta rest for 2 hrs den off to work
chaoz
dEs.mAtT
friendsforever;
11:01 AM
11:01 AM