Wednesday, August 26, 2009
fyck up day
spent the whole damn day planning from morning till evening
was the last group to present my mission plan
wing 2 didn't even see it and name every single negative comments about it ... how it couldn't work and stuff
popped me a question which i can't answer and asked me to elaborate my attack plan, which i didn't get what she wanted moreover without my ppt slides ... screwed ...
spent the whole damn day planning from morning till evening
was the last group to present my mission plan
wing 2 didn't even see it and name every single negative comments about it ... how it couldn't work and stuff
popped me a question which i can't answer and asked me to elaborate my attack plan, which i didn't get what she wanted moreover without my ppt slides ... screwed ...
friendsforever;
11:46 PM
11:46 PM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
today's post is specially for someone special to me ...
LIM KE XIN , EMILYNN...
OUR BIO-DATA ...
got attached : 20th april 2008
broke-up : 26th may 2009
this girlfriend of mine , have been the best .
too bad , i wasn't attentive enough , sensitive to her feelings and thoughtful enough . i lost her away to someone else who was able to do what i couldn't do
she was the best ! seriously , no one knows her better than i do , no one regret more than me , no one thinks about her more than i do, I'M VERY VERY SURE . BECAUSE i'm able to tell everyone out there that she's in my mind heart and soul every single moment... sec, mins, day, week, month ever since i knew her
it was just that i didn't show it out but kept it deep down in my heart... i didn't let her know
my bros know me the best!
guys doesn't like their girl to club that's why they dun allow their girls to club.
1. i was afraid i ain't good enough and she will leave me for another guy if i allowed to keep clubbing or work night life (guys will always approach girls esp when the latter are beautiful just like my ex .... but she's still my baby ...)
2. i'm worried for her as i'm not with her and i wouldn't know what's going to happen , i'm too protective over her
after seeing so many fights going in nightlife . i was simply AFRAID
A. i didn't gave her the reason why i dun allow her to club, but she still could understand how i feel. though when we quarrel she will club. she's different , she clubs cos she loves to dance and dancing helps de-stress for her .
B. which girl would travel all the way down to the bf's workplace , when she has school the next day or work at 9am ? my baby did , she would come down after 12am normally with hot steaming supper for me , cos she was afraid i would be hungry and she misses me so much she wanted to see me . she's much better than all those out there. it was always surprise and unfortunately , she normally would wait for an hour before she could surprise me when i'm about to smoke. the longest she waited 12am till 4am ... now tell me which girl can be better than her ?
C. she would always send me to work and get home by herself no matter how tired is she . she would also wait till 6 am by her phone no matter how tired she was and what time is school or work , so that she couold hear my voice .
D. which girl can tolerate a man's temper as bad as mine ? unfortunately ... very little
E. she stayed awake thru oput the night when i was really sleep , wiping me down with a washed warm cloth , taping me to sleep ?
F. would be worrieid if i have enough money, hence would always wanna pay her share in everything . she's worried if i had enough sleep, taken my meals bla bla bla . she understands me , hence she would always make the effort to travel down, from amk to tampiness, 1 hour plus of bus train bus and walking distance. she would wait patiently for my call when i wake up.
there are many more, A to Z will not be enough though ..
cos she has been the most wonderful girl in my life ...
and I REALLY DO LOVE HER ALOT EVEN TILL NOW...
ppl...i have been begging her to come back but it seems i'm too useless...
i'm a bad bf ...
i'm really to change and i'm changing to be a better man
i want her back
i wanna show her everything that's in my heart and mind
i'm not going to keep ot anymore
i need you back ...
u complete my life baby ...
i really mean it
LIM KE XIN , EMILYNN...
OUR BIO-DATA ...
got attached : 20th april 2008
broke-up : 26th may 2009
this girlfriend of mine , have been the best .
too bad , i wasn't attentive enough , sensitive to her feelings and thoughtful enough . i lost her away to someone else who was able to do what i couldn't do
she was the best ! seriously , no one knows her better than i do , no one regret more than me , no one thinks about her more than i do, I'M VERY VERY SURE . BECAUSE i'm able to tell everyone out there that she's in my mind heart and soul every single moment... sec, mins, day, week, month ever since i knew her
it was just that i didn't show it out but kept it deep down in my heart... i didn't let her know
my bros know me the best!
guys doesn't like their girl to club that's why they dun allow their girls to club.
1. i was afraid i ain't good enough and she will leave me for another guy if i allowed to keep clubbing or work night life (guys will always approach girls esp when the latter are beautiful just like my ex .... but she's still my baby ...)
2. i'm worried for her as i'm not with her and i wouldn't know what's going to happen , i'm too protective over her
after seeing so many fights going in nightlife . i was simply AFRAID
A. i didn't gave her the reason why i dun allow her to club, but she still could understand how i feel. though when we quarrel she will club. she's different , she clubs cos she loves to dance and dancing helps de-stress for her .
B. which girl would travel all the way down to the bf's workplace , when she has school the next day or work at 9am ? my baby did , she would come down after 12am normally with hot steaming supper for me , cos she was afraid i would be hungry and she misses me so much she wanted to see me . she's much better than all those out there. it was always surprise and unfortunately , she normally would wait for an hour before she could surprise me when i'm about to smoke. the longest she waited 12am till 4am ... now tell me which girl can be better than her ?
C. she would always send me to work and get home by herself no matter how tired is she . she would also wait till 6 am by her phone no matter how tired she was and what time is school or work , so that she couold hear my voice .
D. which girl can tolerate a man's temper as bad as mine ? unfortunately ... very little
E. she stayed awake thru oput the night when i was really sleep , wiping me down with a washed warm cloth , taping me to sleep ?
F. would be worrieid if i have enough money, hence would always wanna pay her share in everything . she's worried if i had enough sleep, taken my meals bla bla bla . she understands me , hence she would always make the effort to travel down, from amk to tampiness, 1 hour plus of bus train bus and walking distance. she would wait patiently for my call when i wake up.
there are many more, A to Z will not be enough though ..
cos she has been the most wonderful girl in my life ...
and I REALLY DO LOVE HER ALOT EVEN TILL NOW...
ppl...i have been begging her to come back but it seems i'm too useless...
i'm a bad bf ...
i'm really to change and i'm changing to be a better man
i want her back
i wanna show her everything that's in my heart and mind
i'm not going to keep ot anymore
i need you back ...
u complete my life baby ...
i really mean it
friendsforever;
10:43 PM
10:43 PM
Monday, August 03, 2009
GOOD MORNING
6:40 am already gonna leave for field camp soon
haiz ... i'm so kinda tired dunno why
perhaps i hadn't had enough rest
the weekend wasn't that great though was waiting for my dad to wake up
so that i could send him to the hospital to see a doc regarding his serious
back problem
oh well , he fell down from a coconut tree when he was plucking a coconut
and landed on his back...
oh well he never woke up so i slept at 2 plus so that anytime he needed me to send him to cgh
am damn worried about him now ...
sun morning drove to grandma house to pass sis my results so that she would be able to help me make enquiries on my results ... hope it can be done soon and would raise my gpa higher so that it would be easier for me to get into a uni...
oh well grandma's happy that i've signed on and she asked me about my studies
i hope there would be enough money for me to further my studies ... oh well....
after that went to pick lincoln up skin and yang to go pasir ris sheng song to buy my stuff... they wanted to come along too ... hmmmm
bought my stuff and went to loyang tua pek gong to pray with them...
asked for blessings on my trip and to quickly help me recover from that stupid injury which i have no idea how it came about ...
dad's back pain to soothen ...
for my ( ex :( ) baby to study hard and not drink so much ... i miss her so much and how i wish we could get back together again ... after all this while i still love her so much
i'm sorry i've tried not thiniking about her or it ... but it never seems to work ... i guess i love her too much . but she did mentioned... we ain't able to be together again ... i was too late... hope that guy treat her better than me ... but the best would be she coming back to me thou ...
i'm sorry i keep mentioning things regarding us , i tried but it failed , i love u too much and i still have that hope and believe u will come back to me and change your night life drinking / clubbing habit cos baby ... it ain't gonna help u, u will harm your health . i'm worried emilynn i love u too ...
i asked for my career too, to make it more smooth sailing , and for me to progress the ranks as fast as possible
to gain an entry slot for my uni ...
and my leg to last thru the 10 days field camp ...
i'll and will be able too... but i'm afraid my leg can't take it
i wanna get everything fast and make my dad retire and help my sis and da ge if they need anything ...
i'm worried yet again that i will failure
des.matt's afraid of failure .......
SIGH
6:40 am already gonna leave for field camp soon
haiz ... i'm so kinda tired dunno why
perhaps i hadn't had enough rest
the weekend wasn't that great though was waiting for my dad to wake up
so that i could send him to the hospital to see a doc regarding his serious
back problem
oh well , he fell down from a coconut tree when he was plucking a coconut
and landed on his back...
oh well he never woke up so i slept at 2 plus so that anytime he needed me to send him to cgh
am damn worried about him now ...
sun morning drove to grandma house to pass sis my results so that she would be able to help me make enquiries on my results ... hope it can be done soon and would raise my gpa higher so that it would be easier for me to get into a uni...
oh well grandma's happy that i've signed on and she asked me about my studies
i hope there would be enough money for me to further my studies ... oh well....
after that went to pick lincoln up skin and yang to go pasir ris sheng song to buy my stuff... they wanted to come along too ... hmmmm
bought my stuff and went to loyang tua pek gong to pray with them...
asked for blessings on my trip and to quickly help me recover from that stupid injury which i have no idea how it came about ...
dad's back pain to soothen ...
for my ( ex :( ) baby to study hard and not drink so much ... i miss her so much and how i wish we could get back together again ... after all this while i still love her so much
i'm sorry i've tried not thiniking about her or it ... but it never seems to work ... i guess i love her too much . but she did mentioned... we ain't able to be together again ... i was too late... hope that guy treat her better than me ... but the best would be she coming back to me thou ...
i'm sorry i keep mentioning things regarding us , i tried but it failed , i love u too much and i still have that hope and believe u will come back to me and change your night life drinking / clubbing habit cos baby ... it ain't gonna help u, u will harm your health . i'm worried emilynn i love u too ...
i asked for my career too, to make it more smooth sailing , and for me to progress the ranks as fast as possible
to gain an entry slot for my uni ...
and my leg to last thru the 10 days field camp ...
i'll and will be able too... but i'm afraid my leg can't take it
i wanna get everything fast and make my dad retire and help my sis and da ge if they need anything ...
i'm worried yet again that i will failure
des.matt's afraid of failure .......
SIGH
friendsforever;
6:34 AM
6:34 AM