project is gonna be done soon
just the wiring part now
dunno y sudden urge of blooging ...y ?
it seems i have no one to turn to
suddenly i have the urge to cry again
i think i have let myself down very badly
very very badly
i feel so useless
i dun have that fighting spirit anymore
i wasn't like this is the past to give up hope so easily
i was the one who told ppl "hey, come on how can you determine the result without even trying ? try and if you can't i'm here for you no worries with a smiley face"
i was the one always with high hopes, bright future, distinction was all in my mind end up it's the other way round.

life is just like a very steep slope for me
i climb up that fucking slope for damn irritating and tiring 19 yrs
i just being misunderstood by every single one
and i mean every single one including the people i love most and that includes her
with that i fell right onto the ground with a
fuck! life sux
i wanna cry but who can i cry to ?!?
no one's by my side what worry me most would be my sister
i wanna be strong enough to take care of her
but it seems i'm just a useless fucker


mummy i really miss u alot
i cant believe i cried damn it !
i love u too daddy
i love u too mei n kor
i love u jan

:(

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