another day has passed, yet too fast. i'm too tired

it's moving too fast and i'm 100% going mad. i 've been thinking abt my life, undoubtly seriously stressed about my future ? wadz my future gonna be..

i'm sure everyone had heard this song before (of cos i change some of the lyrics)





When I was ust a little boy,

I asked my parents what will I be?

Would I be pleasant, would I be rich?

here's what they said to me:
dear desmond desmond,What ever will be, will be,

The future's not ours to see,

dear desmond desmond,

What will be will be,




this song so simple yet it brings out the most impt element of life. the word 'FUTURE'.

it's so stressful, i wanna grow up with a stable and good income , just to lead a very comfortable life. things doesn't have to be the best. al i wish is just to be happy and comfortable. i wouldn't mind working tt hard for tt big amount of money. i wanna my family, dad, siblings to live a very nice life. can i do it ? i wonder...

i really ponder.



i'm so afraid so afraid tt i would fail in career and everything.

i'm afraid to fail in life.



todae fri. night , 18th april 2008. i didn't flair, i scrub and clean part of the bar up, when i finally finished, i felt a sense of satisfaction. as thou i had did a nice wonderful flair. it's so ... oh man i carn find the word to explain.

i met ABY, ex bartender of forbidden indochine years back, maybe 3 ? i was a small boy den, knowing nuts abt BAR. 3yrs past and i finally met him at arena, he went to japan to work as a bartender n his totally surviving perfectly fine over there ... he was very glad i grown up still a bartender and he said " gosh des, i couldn't believe u have grown up!" lol he still thinks tt i'm tt small young boy. i'm glad i have worked with all bartenders before

forbidden:

AM BOYAN

ABY

KYDD

DON

ZED

ZUL

FITRI

KHAIRUL

HANIS

HAIGAL

FISH

NESTOR

NASIR

SAM

CJ

SHAH

OG

DARREN

ZACK(EX CHINA JUMP)



it was them whom i learnt from bits and pieces to be wad am i todae

it's sat now. 19th april 2008 , there's gonna be a very huge event of 500-1000 pax.

BUT it's gonna really test my experience as a bartender.

FREE FLOW COCKTAILS! FUCK!

even though it's only 4 cocktails, it's gonna be a hell of a night. GEEZ

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7:42 AM