31ST MAY 2008

kinda tiring but also sad. yet another barman leaving the BAR and a new guy coming in.
should i be staying at ARENA or hop to CHINA ONE if the chance comes upon me should i or should i not ? really in a dilema...
damn it i hate this feeling
i wanna get reach soon and retire fiancially in some yearz to come but am i able to ? it's kinda hard . AM I RIGHT ? i believe i can do it, here's the chance, i need confidence tt's wad i need.

Work was kinda busy todae, kinda fun, enjoying. but the long hectic que never seems to stop seriously. i kept thinking of BABY :(
was wondering if she had enough sleep ? whether am i neglecting her ? i feel so bad, tt i left her alone most of the time yet i felt very uneasy whenever she mentioned she's going clubbing.

i trust her a hell lot. but i just simply dun trust the guys, u noe when they start drinking and see a girl dance they would definately wanna grind the girl. BABY's hot i have to admit, she has got the X factor. but tt's not the reason y i fell in love with her so deeply . it's just her character, soft, kind hearted careful loving... but forever tt emotionless face. BUT I STILL DO LOVE U LOTS MY DEAR :)

19th june's coming i carn help feeling uneasy. no confidence at all, i keep training flaring back with those bruised arms and legs(when accidents happen)
i wanna go to tt BAR perform in it, and let everyone out there know tt ARENA has finally got tt MAN who makes chilling by the BAR wonderful.

if only i could stop time just for a little while to spend time with baby. i really let her down =(

BABY I LOVE YOU.

p.s baby u mean so much to me even if i have to slp a little lesser i would just to see u. i love it when u smile. thanks baby!

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6:43 AM