it has been a long time since i last update this blog , it has been manys months since i last update , too many problems in such a short time ...
time again and again, i can't seem to take things into my own hands now
it's too much for me to handle, simply too much
I 'M FREAKING OUT !

i miss bartending , it's has got nothing to do with except bartending
mixing of drinks , doing waterfall, flairing

somehow i just feel like giving up now, life seems so meaningless, i have many plans
many dreams and many goals

it seemed so possible and realistic... right now? pointless and it can't be done that easy

she left me
she's out of my life
i need her
i love her
i miss her
she's in my heart
all the time
this time
i really tried....
life's so pointless
so meaningless
she was what i worked towards too
now she's ain't by my side
i'm falling
deeper and deeper everyday
every single day
she refused
and she ain't interested
she ain't coming back anymore
back to my side
to be my goals
my dreams
my HAPPINESS .....




i just feel like giving up, i've no one to turn to
what shall i do ?
i'm FUCKED

friendsforever;
6:57 PM